Tonsilitis again.

I have so many Halloween things to post but I've been too busy to get to it and I don't know if I'll get to it before I go on vacation! I'm so happy I scheduled my vacation for next week and I'm outta here! So long suckers! hehe jk

Here are a couple from Halloween... I was a kitty! I have to scan in the picture of Haley and mom from Halloween, we didn't manage to get any of her in costume, I may have her dress up again just so I can do that!

And some from Halloweens in the past!
My brother will love that I reposted this picture... lol

Me a few years ago making faces with Haley! hehe

And my brother sister and I when we were a little younger....

Uhmm I was the one with the green hair... I've always leaned towards being witchy.... this year the kitty thing was for something different! Eric kept texting me "here kitty kitty" while I was at work. hehehe

Okay I love you buh bye! hehe

And even though I know he won't see it... Happy Birthday Daddy I love you!!

I chipped a tooth today. I have no idea how.

Work was very hard today... I worked a lot and very hard. I'm exhausted. I have so much more to do tomorrow. We were there so late tonight and we were so exhausted that our boss told us to go home. I'm going to go take a bath and then go to bed. My back is killing me.

Near the end of the day it got a little crazy and the bunny on my desk began to eat the cockroaches... It was insane... you have no idea. I got this rare photo to share with you all.

I went back to sleep last night after writing a bit. I woke yesterday morning around 730 or so to be at my uncle's house by 9. After my brakes were done and we went to the bank I got home around 230-3 or so and just crashed. I was so tired. I slept until 9 something then was up for like 2 hours and then went back to sleep until 7 this morning. I'm tired again now but at least it's a normal time to be tired. I don't think I'm sick anymore at least. Yesterday I think may have been a combination of allergies and exhaustion.

We're still working hard on budget stuff. I got very far today, I input all the things I needed to input this weekend. I even drove the revisions over to my boss' house so that she could use them for verifying whether we had all our information or not. I'm hoping she got to finish her part of things. Tomorrow is going to be hectic... always fun.

*yawns* going to bed now.

Finally determined that I must be sick. I slept for several hours and I'm still tired. I've been tired all week. I think the stress finally caught up to me. I was sick from work Monday. My head is stuffy and not fun. Mom even invited me to go out to dinner with her and her friend hours ago and I just said no I needed sleep. I'm probably going back to bed in a minute or two here.

I hate being sick. Makes me all grouchy!

I'm so tired. I don't do well emotionally when I'm tired. I'm definitely feeling the effects of the exhaustion.

Stuff to talk about probably most shouldn't be public so I'll have to add that later. My uncle did my brakes this morning, I now hear a weird noise I'm too tired to check it out. Hopefully after sleep I will be up for it.

We decorated a bunch last night there is more to do. The thing we're worried about is there are all these little plastic bugs everywhere and it's supposed to be in the mid 90s today.... We are so hoping they don't melt onto the porch!

That would be bad...

I got a Halloween card for my dad that says

"I'm pregnant." on the front
 and inside it says "I'm not really, but I just wanted to throw a real scare into you for Halloween!"

*grins*

I posted this on my myspace, I wanted to share it here as well.

 A few years ago I got fed up with the life I had. I'd call it restless if
I had to label it. I kept obsessively reassessing what my life was and
decided I couldn't keep living the way I was. Like an angry bull I ran
through my life taking all these perfect little tables precariously
balanced with different aspects of what my life was and started
knocking them over one by one. As scary as it felt to let go like that
it was also liberating.

Over the last two years I've been
putting things back together. Rebuilding every section a little at a
time with as strong a foundation as I could possibly find. It's not
perfect, I don't know if it can be. My sister told me at one point that
29 was the year for her when everything changed. This year has been
full of challenges and battles that I didn't know I was not only strong
enough to fight but also win.

Most people don't know this about
me but almost three years ago I was very angry and sad. I dropped to my
knees one night and through a bout of heavy sobbing I found myself
praying. I asked God to please help me. I'd prayed for strength
endlessly to please get me through for many years prior to that moment
and this night I just released. I prayed that if God could help me I'd
do my best to make the best of this life given to me.

I prayed
that he please help me finally own and sell my old home. I had prayed
if he please just let me get money out of that house I'd be able to
work with that, somehow I got more than the amount I asked for, half again as much. I was
going to take that money and reinvest it into my new life.That money
was gone in less than a year. I didn't know it at the time but I was
living the Chinese proverb of "Give a man a fish and he eats for a day.
Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime."

I of
course was disappointed at that time to have squandered the gifts I was
so graciously given. Here I was close to broke, kicking my then
boyfriend out of the house again, on medi-cal being told I could be on
welfare if I'd just accept it, living at home with my dad and step mom
in a bit of chaos and emotionally lost. I soon found a job and quickly
found another and have been working my way up. I can honestly say that
I feel "successful" in business for the first time in my life this year
and I feel as if I have boundless possibilities. Medi-cal a blip in my
past as well as the thought of welfare, still living in my parents
house but this time renting it from them, exboyfriend long gone, still
close to broke but happier than I've ever been before and financially
handling things on my own.

I have had a lot of help along the
way. I've made new friends that I know will be lifelong friends. I'm
working to reconnect and repair relationships with friends from my
past. I hope that with all the chances I've been given in the past by
them they will extend me another chance.

The amazing thing for
me is I feel so strong and powerful in my own life now. I was tired of
being so stressed and worried and shy all the time that I decided I was
done with it and I'd change it! I've gotten rid of most of the safety
nets in my life and I couldn't be happier. I've got a strong family
that loves and supports me and I've got the confidence in myself to
trust that no matter what happens I'll be more than alright. I'm
still on the path to finding myself but I'm pretty certain of who I am
and I'm making no apologies for living the life I want and being who I
am.

I really want to thank everyone who has helped me, even
the smallest bit. The people who even just chatted on yahoo a bit just
to remind me that it does get better all the way to the person who
stood up to my exhusband with me even through calls to the police and
complete drama and unnecesary insanity. I'm so thankful in my life, I'm
so fortunate. The family I've been given and the family I have in all
my friends is the most amazing thing I ever could have asked for and I
didn't even have to ask for it, somehow I just received.

I just wanted to let you all know something very important.

I'm happy.

I feel great! Treadmill for 20 minutes, went a mile and I even got to see the sun coming up this morning.

Awesome.