In appreciation of Mother's Day, me and my mom and Haley and my grandma. So thankful to have the opportunity to enjoy four generations all together. Pretty awesome isn't it?

    

I updated my protected yesterday, can everyone who could see it before still see it? Also if anyone wants to be added to it please let me know.

Long day.

Very tired.

I just noticed my premium ran out at some point.

Wonder when that was... hmm

The end result of mom's visit to the hospital was that there is a small spot in the back of her heart not getting enough blood and causing problems. They gave her information on what to do to make it better. There are other issues too but that was the main cause of the current stuff.

I got some sleep last night, which I needed, but I was not feeling great last night. When I got up this morning mom told me Lucky had thrown up in his crate last night, then this morning he hesitated when it came to eating (he usually inhales his food in 2 seconds) and then when he went outside he threw it all up. He still seems a little out of it but I'm sure he'll be fine. Mom thinks he may have gotten overheated yesterday. Haley and I went out yesterday around 10 or 11am and it was already 88 degrees outside. After the cool weather we've had lately for the temperatures to get that high that fast was probably a shock to his little system.

Mom is back home. We're both exhausted today. Thank you for the well wishes. I bought 5 bundles of daffodils today, they are her favorite flower. So we have this huge vase overflowing with daffodils today on the table.

Mom spent the night in the hospital last night. She was very dizzy and sick to her stomach, when they got to the emergency room her blood pressure was 227/90. By the time I had gotten there it was down to 150/60 and they had taken blood but didn't have any results. Of course since I'd only slept 3 hours last night I didn't stay long, she was very groggy, my grandma was struggling with it all but I'm so glad she was there as she was the one that called mom and when mom picked up her phone yesterday grandma said "who is this?" I guess her voice was unrecognizable. Grandma kept asking her if she wanted her to come over and mom said no then eventually said maybe she should and they decided to go to the emergency room. It was all around the time I got off of work and there was confusion on my part as I had to get to my appointment, which I always turn my phone off for. So I got there after my appointment and learned all that had happened. They kept her over night for observation and she should be out today. My work is 5 minutes from the hospital she's at so I can be there at a moment's notice.

Sometimes I wonder what caused me to get so far off track. Was it really so easy as one simple little decision on something so minor as a single date that changed the course of my entire life? Possibly. If only I'd said no when he asked me or if only I'd not gone back when he called me an hour late and begged me to give him a second chance. If only, if only... if only can be endless. I have been given so many chances in my life and I need to figure out how to be and stay thankful for all of them, whether they worked out or not.

There have been so many little things that added up to big things and eventually became messes I could no longer clean up, or so I thought. It has taken dealing with the little things that then added up to big things and eventually became something beautiful. Amazing how that works isn't it?

All things in their own time.

Doing my best to remember the motto someone who really loved me told me many years ago. "To thine ownself be true." I think I'm finally living that, each step I take on this path has gotten me closer to that life than ever before.

With that, I have to go, Happy Valentine's Day. I've found love and that love is from inside of me, I'm thankful for this life, I'm thankful for my friends, my family and all of the love I feel from everyone around me. I am truly blessed.

I just added this photo to my myspace with the caption "God gave me you and I couldn't be more thankful for anything in my life."